I had a post written last night, but the contents are under discussion in the Heidkamp household. Alma thinks it's to personal. I still want to recognize that week two has been completed.
Chemo and Radiation have been going well. As of now the only side effects are some tiredness and acne on my forehead. I am sleeping through the Chemo well and not experiencing any nausea. Radiation has been a peaceful experience, I find that I take some time to pray, and sometimes fall asleep towards the end. I am fortunate, I have heard the other end of the experience and I am wildly lucky.
Kim is doing really well. She hit a wall a few weeks ago, but has been recovering since then. Yeah, she continues to kick ass taking care of the kids and me. I should also note that she is processing all of this Cancer business well. The kids have both been sick, hacking up their brains, but have been little troopers. Alma had Pinkeye and every time we gave her eyedrops she would naturally get angry. What was surprising was that she would say thank you after we were done. What a goofy little girl.
I am doing well. At church we sang the chorus. "It is well with my soul," and I was able to sing it and mean it. Oddly, I was chatting with God during that song saying "Fuck This Shit." It's weird to be mad at this diagnosis while being ok with what it means. I do want to be healed (I believe in miracles and science), but I am at peace with death. I am still processing the wake I will leave, that is going to take some time to work through.
I am going to end with an assignment. Figure out a bucket list item and do it. At some point this winter I am going up north to stare at stars. If you decide to complete this assignment, share your bucket list item here or on Facebook, and when you do accomplish it share it.