My family and I live in Minneapolis Minnesota. This is a blog about my fight with Cancer. I hope to share about my experience with treatment, my life with my beautiful family, and this crazy adventure called life. Oh, and we love doughnuts!

Written In The Quiet Of My House

Sitting here in the still of my home, I am alone. Which is a rare situation these days. Kim is off exploring the grandeur and glory that is NYC, and my wonderful children and spending the next two nights with my amazing in-laws. Which will allow me to focus on work this week, and right now, enjoy this wonderful stillness. 

So here I am enjoying the end of what was a lovely, productive, and restful day. I tried to listen to some music, but once it started to play I missed the hum of my dryer and quickly turned it off. And being that I haven't blogged in quite some time I thought I should write something. And since I recently had another MRI why not provide an update on how I am doing.

Well I am happy to say I had another great MRI. Again, that means that what needs to heal is still healing and there are no signs of recurrence so no need for surgery. As I have mentioned before, as time passes by the chance for recurrence increases so the fact that my MRI was clear is quite a relief. Overall I feel pretty darn good, and my monthly Chemo treatments are finally getting on schedule.

Two weeks ago I did have a rough night of nausea that kept me up all night. When I finally got up to get something to eat I became dizzy, sat down on the floor, and either fainted or had enough seizure. Which sadly means no driving for me until December. The silver lining? I get to do a bunch of work on my truck that I couldn't as it was my primary mode of transportation. So right now it is in the garage with the front fenders off for rust removal, and one of the wheels off so I can fix the 4WD and enjoy full traction this winter.

Ed is back in preschool and Alma is hanging out with Grandma one day and a friend of ours another day. That means Kim is getting back into the studio more and more and soon will have some prints to sell. I will for post something to the blog when they are available for sale.

It's interesting, as time has past I have had a few moments where I thought, "Oh shit, I have Cancer," and each time the gravity of the situation I am in was more present and real to me. So much so I was avoiding this blog. You see this blog is one of the ways I process what I am going through, and to write a blog about what I am going through means that I actually have to accept what could happen to me in the not too distant future. So I ignored the blog, came up with other hobbies to obsess about to drown out that reality, that gravity, the fact that someday I will die much sooner than I expected.

So, here I am finally writing again. In the still of this rainy night accepting my potential fate, and deciding to not let it stop me from doing the things that I love to do; not let it hold power over me; and not let it get in the way of encouraging others to live their lives to the fullest.

I sit in the quiet.

An Assignment - Sit in the quiet. Go to your favorite coffee shop, bookstore, library, or any place you find peaceful, and just sit in the quite. 

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