My family and I live in Minneapolis Minnesota. This is a blog about my fight with Cancer. I hope to share about my experience with treatment, my life with my beautiful family, and this crazy adventure called life. Oh, and we love doughnuts!

Hey, How Are You Feeling?

People often ask me, “how are you doing, or how are you feeling,” which are very fair questions. Frankly, since I don’t look like I have cancer, work out regularly, often at the office, and traveling quite a bit, it makes sense to me that people ask those questions. Oddly enough, compared to how I felt before my surgery, I feel amazing. And thanks to Ritalin, my current monthly rounds of Chemo treatments don't affect me like they used to.

I have to admit that it's weird for me to think that I have a significant form of cancer. Being that I feel so good it is hard to comprehend that I potentially have a very short timeline. It is a weird state of limbo that myself and my family are in.

One question that I ask myself regularly is how am I doing mentally emotionally, which is a question we should all be asking ourselves, and I think overall I am doing well. I am not ignoring this reality that I am in, I am often discussing it with family and friends, my wife and I often check in with each other about it so overall I think I am in a good spot. One fact that I have come to terms with is that I will never really be able to wrap my head around all of this. That while I am doing all the things I can to process this, I know that it will always be a complex issue that I will often need to check in with people on.

I think one thing I have become consistent in is asking God to heal me. Be it through the power of science, the power of the holy spirit, or both. I was encouraged by my brother to ask God to heal me daily and I was not consistent with it, but thanks to an app called Echo I am reminded daily to ask for healing. I know to some of those that read this blog this paragraph sounds crazy, and maybe it is crazy, but hell I'm crazy so it fits.

Here is one thing I know, and one thing I know I have said repeatedly. I know that I am going through this with the most amazing people around me. That I am in this slugfest with the greatest partner in life, and with the greatest kids that I get to bless while I am still here. I have family and friends that love me, strangers that read my blog and encourage me, and a God that knows what I am going through and will help me along the way no matter what the end result is.

As my family and I were flying back from Portland I was sitting next to my son with his head in my lap. I sat there and prayed for him, for his future, for the person that he will be. I asked for blessing on him as I often do for my whole family. If I am going to exit this world early than originally expected I am going to make sure I do what I can to bless the socks off of the ones I love.

An Assignment - Whether it be in person, on social media, or via an email, speak encouragement in 5 different people. Be specific, callout their gifts, speak into the things they do. It will make their day and your day as well.

Religion Is Crazy

Guest Post - Joshua David